Some Pride
I can’t believe I was able to learn to play this 20 years after stopping in high school. I haven’t been able to play it since giving my 14 y/o my full sized violin a few years ago, but I will play again. I have a delusion that a good friend from the hospital once gifted me a much nicer violin that’s stored safely elsewhere. Maybe one day I’ll find out it was true #RyanInTheStupidpants!!!
Haze is getting really good at the violin and viola too. The child is pretty much prepared for the NCHO contest in the fall (after working on it this summer), and after the first day of orchestra on Friday he already had the music pretty much down during his weekly lesson with Mrs. Bush. Not quite ready for La Folia, but will certaintly surpass me in a year or two.
Some Mystic Stuff
Am I (the ego) ready to loose the separation (from all of human-kind)? Bliss out as a creator? Maybe I should read Walter Russell? Maybe remain separate? I don’t know. Sometimes I think that I do bliss out (in the #NappingBurmeseKittenLevel – LOC of Peace at 667) for decades without realizing it. But then I’m back, right where I left off, trying to find a hobby or band-aid my family, as if no time has passed. Is the question, do I want to practice La Folia or do I want to return to the state of a single human consciousness? Or do I keep the interchanging point between the two going, at natural slower and slower intervals as the pendulum naturally stops? Is the question: do I love the other characters (egos) of my family enough to keep it going? And how does my blissisng out or creating and existing in the simulation affect other creators, like Darcie?
Or how about a prayer for a better morning (below) as a separate creator.