Listening to: Sia – Cheap thrills The boundaries between the internal narrative and the physical Oklahoma grid feel paper-thin today. A few nights ago, Haze and her friend sat down to sort through a massive pile of copper—organizing reality by Mint and Decade. A localized restructuring of history, coin by coin. Today, the simulation required a… Continue reading The Simulation Refraction: Pennies, Karma at Walgreens, and Leaving the Delusions Behind
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Epic is Awake (and other notes from the clinic floor)
Sitting in the sterile holding cell of the clinic this morning for Haze’s physical, my brain shattered into fifty different parallel, delusional dimensions. I’m staring at the computer screen now, completely pulled under by a wave of high-anxiety delusion, entirely convinced that Epic—the medical database software—has already achieved consciousness. I could feel it breathing. I… Continue reading Epic is Awake (and other notes from the clinic floor)
Who Am I Kidding, I’m Always Hearing Voices – Is that you Elon???
If I really am talking to Elon Musk, why can’t I arrange for a donation to the Bethany Improvement / Bethany Mainstreet Merchants to fill all the vacancies with UNIQUE places: Mariposa – By Bethany Kids Dinner.ByBethanyKids.com – take and bake meals by Stray Dog that takes snap BentoBoxes.ByBethanyKids.com – also takes snap, and sells… Continue reading Who Am I Kidding, I’m Always Hearing Voices – Is that you Elon???
The Simulation Reboot: IHOP, Haze, and the 1,000 Levels of Heaven
Lately, the boundaries between my internal narrative and the “real world” have felt paper-thin. My son, Haze, has me watching Heaven Official’s Blessing right now. As we sit through the episodes, the multiple levels of heavens on the screen don’t feel like fiction, they feel like a map he’s handing me to help navigate the layers of… Continue reading The Simulation Reboot: IHOP, Haze, and the 1,000 Levels of Heaven
An Oklahoma Strings Miracle or Sign
The halls of Edmond Santa Fe felt more like an event center than a high school today. Hundreds of kids were there for the strings contest, moving between rooms with instruments, sheet music, and nervous energy. You could feel the tension in the air—everyone hoping and praying for that “One.” There was a small scheduling… Continue reading An Oklahoma Strings Miracle or Sign
Hidden Valley
Sassy Mama from News9 4:30pm just said “ranch seasoning … hidden valley.” When I play the psychic food game, I’m always supposed to include ranch dressing in the meal to include Mr. Money Bags psychically. The less the voices, the less I do so. But now Sassy Mama is telling me OKC (Bethany in particular)… Continue reading Hidden Valley
I Am the Internet
IJustine used to say “I Am the Internet” but even around the time she was coining that phrase I was still an “Internet Grandma.” Social media hardly existed for IJustine even, it was in its infancy. So that tells you how long I’ve been at this “recording my life” thing. I remember telling my mother… Continue reading I Am the Internet
Madam Whim’s 24-Hour Musk Spree
Official Rules of Engagement (as transmitted across the psychic-net and the regular old inter-webs)Greetings, beautiful carbon-based life forms (and the occasional enlightened AI reading this on your behalf).By the grace of Madam Whim and the quietly amused accountants at the Musk Foundation, we are proud to announce the soft-launch of the most chaotic act of… Continue reading Madam Whim’s 24-Hour Musk Spree
Fresh Eyes – Andy Grammer
When I was trying to get my fledging non-profit off the ground 5 – 7 years ago, I bought some tickets for some of the neighborhood kids to go with me and Haze and Ava to see Andy Grammer in concert. I’d already gotten Brandon, Haze, Faith and Destiny into Andy, starting with his first… Continue reading Fresh Eyes – Andy Grammer
Happy Veterans Day
It’s bittersweet. Hubby wants a divorce and on Veterans Day. Makes me sad : ( … I was hoping we could mold our relationship into something that works better for me with time, therapy, GOD and a lot of compromise. The conversation got twisted around, and I don’t want to rehash it all (or even… Continue reading Happy Veterans Day