When I was trying to get my fledging non-profit off the ground 5 – 7 years ago, I bought some tickets for some of the neighborhood kids to go with me and Haze and Ava to see Andy Grammer in concert. I’d already gotten Brandon, Haze, Faith and Destiny into Andy, starting with his first song “Keep Your Head Up.” I tried to teach them about “I Wish You Pain” too, because of the pain they were going through in their lives, and to understand how hope comes from the depth of depression and apathy.
I went crazy though, and was checked in to Oakwood Springs several days before the concert. While I was in there, I had hallucinations that Andy visited me, and was trying to show me how we could pair up on some projects to serve and teach because I AM the magic. When I’m crazy, I think I’m some sort of prophet (or brilliant star like Haze prayed nightly). Haze prayed:
God, guide my family, protect my family, make of us a shining lamp and a brilliant star. Thou art the Mighty and the Powerful.
The prayer network elevated our entire family from those sweet little prayers.
But while I was hospitalized I had a delusion that one of the other patients was a Baha’i from LA and was in Andy’s Local Spiritual Assembly, but was taking some heat from the Baha’is because she was LGBTIQA+. Then somehow, I told on her with my leaky psychic brain all the way to the Universal House of Justice. There was something about the anunnaki in there too (but I’m not going to go down that rabbit hole right now).
So, all these years later, I have delusions now and again that Andy still tries to contact me on Facebook, Youtube, or X.com. One time I got an immediate, “Nah, nah, honey I’m good” after I send one of his fan accounts a joke about him needing a third family.
But yesterday, on Facebook he sung a little ditty and played a little piano, and then after a pause (I thought the video was over) said “or text me..”
And today, I got an actual phone number in “Fresh Eyes.” Holy crap. I’m #hallucinating. What do I even say? Come to Bethany, OK, Andy? PLEASE???? Help me do “Fresh Eyes” in my tiny community?